From a story I am working on: (its all fiction, NOT real life!)
When you dream, I feel it. If you dream of me, I feel it. If your thoughts turn in my direction, and you focus, I feel it. Today, I leaned back, closed my laptop and I too took a nap. The night before really wore me out. Lots of emotions, too many, not enough, all wanting, no quenching. I suppose I will grow accustomed to this feeling. I will miss it when I do though. It is a great feeling. I’ve gone a very long time and wanted nothing.
I cried myself asleep. I actually sobbed and let it all out, it hurt. A lot! I won’t allow myself to tap into that place again. There is no need to wallow. It is what it is and there isn’t a thing in the world I can do about it. I realize you think you are somehow motivating me, and I realize that everyone else you’ve ever met needs a motivator. It’s kind of funny really, I am the developer for others, or at least I used to be, and I have always been my own best trainer and motivator, hard to believe, but I seriously push myself harder than anyone else ever has. I know I can always do better.
I also know that doing better requires effort. I am tired. Life holds very little interest for me. I am poor, and stuck in circumstance. Anything that might interests me costs money, which is not going to happen for me. And so I sit. I write to kill time. I like writing, it’s a great outlet. Fuck load of work, long, long hours and often its crap and wasted time, but heck, at least I burned that puppy and now am one day closer to this lifetime being over.
I know, it sounds so fatalistic. I am not at all a fatalist. I am just not that attached to living. I seriously feel it is a bit of an exercise in futility, but heck, killing myself didn’t pan out, and so here I sit.
Anyway, I digress, today, after I sobbed myself into a partial sleep, I began to feel you. New visuals, images I’d never before manifested sprang up into my mind, unbidden they barged in and demanded I notice. I looked, I noticed, I liked. My body immediately reacted, which it has been doing now since you started talking to me. Two weeks you said, well for two weeks, my body has been in the highest state of arousal I’ve ever experienced. It takes all my will power to not stare at my phone, waiting to see your name. I even woke up incredibly early just to see if your name was there. Sigh.
So here were these new visuals. Something about me; I truly believe our brains are incredible communication devices and if one has a powerful enough need to reach another, they can achieve it. With the horses, they send visuals constantly. It’s the horses that whisper and us that needs to learn how to hear them, see them, communicate with them on their level.
So, today I got your visuals. I guess you were sleeping, it was intense. There was so much need, I about melted on the spot. I love how powerful you are, you don’t frighten me, you mirror me, you are the first to be such a force that I must reckon with you and not vice a versa. We were sleeping together, naked, sleeping. You pulled me to you, wrapped your arm over my waist and palmed my stomach, dragging me to your front. You got hard so fast you still hadn’t fully awakened, but you were hard as granite.
I gave to you instantly, wanting to be pressed as close to you as possible, always. In real time my body was a wreck at this point. My heart was stuttering along, not so much hammering as it was literally doing some erratic, irregular stall and restart shit, and it was a bit painful. My pussy was soaking wet, and I could feel my pulse deep inside my core. My ultra-sensitive nipples were jutting and hard as erasers. My mouth was watering too.
You pushed me onto my belly and you mounted my ass, sliding your cock up between my legs. I spread for you, opening my apex, your hands came around and found each tit. You smothered me with your body and buried your face in the back of my neck, and within seconds you were deep inside my body. Sliding in and letting my heat sheathe all of your incredibly heavy length.
You stopped and we just languished there, in the land of synchronized breaths and thudding hearts. We felt each other. It was the most delicious moment of my life, you kissed my neck and then you bit me. You fucked me hard for long breath holding minutes and I came so quickly it startled both of us. You were soon to follow, and it took all your air, it was heated and copious and it made me cum again.
It was a blip in time, quick and fast and the most feeling I have had in this body in so long I can’t really remember. It made me ache to be in bed next to you. I want to wallow with you, I want to belong to you so you can access me at a moment’s notice and use me to satisfy your every need. I want to be your every need.